Next week I'm going to see a movie. 
Not just any movie - "Wolverine".
I am going to get my full-on comic book geek on!

But you know what I'm most looking forward to about the movie?

Who I'm going to see it with.

I'm going to see it with a guy that is arguably one of my closest friends.

This is the guy who shares some of my most joyous and heartbreaking memories.

He is really cool.

Want to know the really strange thing?

We hardly ever talk anymore.

We've grown up (okay - at least chronologically), moved away, started families, started careers.

Nobody's fault - just life.

Kim is my best friend.

As it should be.
But I envy the fact that she has a group of really good friends. They mean the world to her.
I envy the fact that women just seem so much more comfortable opening up, sharing the "below-the-surface" stuff that forges deep friendships.

Women get to have girlfriends.

Boys don't have... well, you get the point.

I'm struggling because I have a friendship with another brother
that just seems to be on life-support right now.
By all practical accounts it's over - just nobody's called the time of death yet.

This tears me up more than I ever thought it would.
I refuse to let go.
I pray for restoration.
I know that it is really out of my hands.

Psalm 55:12-14
If an enemy were insulting me,

I could endure it; 

if a foe were raising himself against me,

I could hide from him.

But it is you, a man like myself,

my companion, my close friend,

with whom I once enjoyed sweet fellowship

as we walked with the throng at the house of God.

Father, show me where I've hurt my brother so that I can seek forgiveness. Even if the chapter of our friendship is closed - I owe him that much. I put it in your hands. Amen.

Guys don't do that often because its very uncomfortable. 
It's easier to walk away.

Bite the bullet.

Just get over it.

But this friendship is a gift from God - it's worth fighting for.

Good thing nobody reads this - they'd revoke my "man card"

Peace